I've bought couple of clothes for new year. The difference of this year and previous year was,
I WASNT WEARING NEW CLOTHES FOR THE 1ST DAY OF CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!!
Previous year i was eager to wear new clothes and waiting to get many ang pow as i can. But this year it was like normal days for me. Wake up, brush teeth, wear house clothes, breakfast and watching TV, and go my baby sitter house a whie. And that's end of my 1st day of CNY. Boring isn't it?? Okay, okay, okaaaaayy...... I admit i GROW OLD already.
There is another difference this year. But still i know when the happy times come, the bad things would happen after that. And my intuition is always right. Why it would always right? Haiz..i hate this feeling though.
I know i shouldn't make a comparison. But i try very hard not to. I try not to know any about your things. But still if being ask or chat about your things, i couldn't said "I don't really want to chat about it!" isn't it? Cos i also want to know your things actually. But after knowing, i feel bad. Cos, i thought i know about your things much but actually i don't know that much. Though that things was a small matter but that is not the first time it happen like this. Is just i don't admit it was actually happened. But now, i do admit.
Lot of the things that i've been chat and ask about. The more i ask, the more the differences is clearly curve out. I just don't know should i say to myself "I am a different person, so that is why you act this way!" or i should say "You weren't seriously towards me!" As i keep thinking longer, I know you are at the second option. Okay.... I admit now.
I will no longer demand you to do any changes now. Do what ever as you likes. If wouldn't work out well, i'll go with mine, you'll go with yours. I won't force you anymore.
Till then, I need to admit it.
Maye
